looking back i have been through a lot. but eveything i have been through has made me that much stronger. ive learned people will talk about you, people will say lies, but you have to just let it go, let them say what they want, they dont know you. its been rough learning every lesson and sometimes it takes a long time but in the end it helps build you into who you are and it will help you grow up. life is full of ups and down, its like a rollar coaster in your at the bottom your looking up at whats coming and if your at the top your bracing yourself for whats to come. standing here looking at myself today, as now a sophmore of college, i see how much this year i have grown. some desisions i made this year were heat breaking but nessacery, some desisions i made this year i wish i could take back, and other desisions i made im really proud of. moving off six hours away from everyone you know to a weird place you have never been for longer than two days is really hard, and its a shock on your system. i can stand here and tell you that i wasnt going to come back here, i was going to give up and move back home, until i sat down the other night and thought of how much this year has helped me become independent, how it has helped me see who i am and where i want to go. now do i feel like i fit in here? no i dont think i do, but as this school year is coming to a close i realize i dont think i fit in because i havent tried to, i held back and stayed in my own world this year, thats one thing i wish i could change if anything. i should of put myself out there and tried to meet people and try to get involved. thats one thing that will change next year. tonight im taking time to gaze at whats to come, i see new friends, new relationships, new adventures, and me growing into the young woman i want to be. this summer im going on a new adventure with my twin brother and sister for the first time we together are going to the beach, we are becoming independent paying for everything, making hotel reservations, figuring out how things work in the real world. now its not some huge thing but think about it if something doesnt go just our way we cant run to our parents and have them fix it. we cant just hide behind the people that have helped us thus far, we are being set free to face the world even if its only a week. also this summer i will be training to run a half-marathon, something i have wanted to do since i started running in middle school, now to many this is no big task or no big acheviement, but to me a girl that has been out of running for at least three years because of bad knees, this is a huge hill to climb. however i will reach my goal no matter the blood, sweat, and tears i have to put into it. i will reach my dream. then next school year will be a new experience, i will have friends to come back to here at school and along with that i will be bringing one of my best friends up here too. next year has a lot of chances within it, it will hold heartbreaks, loves, friends, ennimes, and the usual ups and downs of life, but even knowing that it will be hard and with that i will experince the hard times looking forward to them and welcomeing them with open arms. im ready to chase my dreams and face the world. im ready to grow and learn how to live. im ready for the adventures to come.
